I can't push it away this time So I'll try to put it down into rhyme The feelings that control my heart The pain that has torn me apart I didn't think he'd hurt me I didn't think I'd feel the jealousy I didn't think he'd lie I didn't think I'd want to die. Yet, I look at the River flowing and I cry, secretly knowing That the problem is really me That Happy is something I'll never be
"> My whole life i've been trying to fit in with people, ya kno the "normal" but I've always been left out. Since kindergarden i've been listening to hardcore bands because that's what my bro listnened to When I was in kindergarden my teacher told my mom that I needed to be put in the loony bin because I was supposidly hurting myself..but it wasnt me that was doin it..it was a kid that thought it was fun to hit girls. (He bothered me all the way to 5th grade,then he failed and I wasnt in any more of his classes) Well anyways.... I've been shy since I could remember, but it seems like it's getting worse. Now that I'm in highschool things are getting harder. More people judge, there's so many more reasons people don't fit in My school is a smaller school.. You may not fit in b/c ur fat, b/c ur black, b/c u dont wear ur hair the "right" way...You may not listen to the right music. Its annoying b/c I kinda fall into all the groups but I dont hang with people I want to.. the people that claim to be my friends, well lets just say they're not. The old friends I used to have are now and forever more ignoring me b/c of the people Im with now.. I listen to ALL music, I dress in "Gothic" clothes, and I wear Aeropostile. I'm not accepted by the "outcasts " because I have "popular" friends, Im not accepted by the "populars" because Im friends with "goths" I just want to be accepted by someone... a group...anything!
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